LAHORE: Short in stature and soft spoken, Pakistani paramedic Ehsan* was probably destined for a life of relative anonymity, until he began killing homosexual men he met online.
The 28-year-old father-of-two was arrested last week and confessed to three brutal murders, saying he wanted to send out a message about the “evils” of homosexuality, though police insist he had sex with his victims first.
Ehsan said he was the victim of sexual abuse by an older boy when he was around 10 years old and had led a deeply unhappy childhood.
“I have hated them ever since what happened to me,” he said.
The killings have sent shockwaves through the underground gay community of the eastern city of Lahore, which fears Ehsan could be lionised as a hero in a conservative society where homosexuality is stigmatised and sodomy is punishable by up to 10 years in jail.
In an interview with AFP from his prison cell Sunday night, Ehsan, who sported a neat trimmed beard and was kept shackled, expressed remorse over the killings but said he was acting to stop wrongdoing.
“My way was wrong. It is tragic that the families have lost their relatives but they were spreading evil in society and I had to stop it,” said Ehsan, who is due to appear in court on Monday. “I wanted to warn them to stay away from this evil.”
Brutal killings
The killings happened in March and April, according to police officer Asad Sarfraz, who headed the investigation.
The victims were a middle-aged retired male and two other men, both in their 20s.
All three were found with their necks broken and had been sedated.
After examining their mobile phone call logs, police were able to identify Ehsan's number and found another former lover whom they used as a honey trap to lure him to a meeting a week ago, where they arrested him.
Ehsan, who was married in 2011 and has two infant children, said his family knew nothing of what he had done and insisted that he was not gay himself.
He said he discovered the underground community using a popular social networking website, where he also found out about its widespread existence in Lahore.
“They are spreading evil and transmitting diseases. They cannot control themselves,” he added.
Fear among gays
The case has shone an unwelcome spotlight on Pakistan's closeted gay community, who are often afraid to come out to their families and in the absence of gay venues rely on the Internet and mobile apps to arrange clandestine dates.
With sex outside marriage both illegal and deeply frowned upon, same-sex partners are generally able to avoid the same level of scrutiny unmarried heterosexual couples come under.
With the case due to be heard in court on Monday, one member of Pakistan's gay community said he was worried Ehsan could be hailed as a hero by some conservative Muslims.
“The problem is that paedophilia and homosexuality are often conflated, so people think eradicating homosexuality means eradicating child abuse,” he said.
Ehsan had been a sexually active member of the gay community for several months, the man claimed.
“It seems he was motivated by self-hatred and internalised homophobia,” he said. "The worry is -- will it inspire others to do the same?”
*Name has been changed