A view of the summit of Nevado de Colima. That night it rained on us, and as we carb-loaded in our tents, wearing all our layers to stay warm, my friend said to me, “do you realise you are stepping foot where no one from your country has before?”
While this was not new information to me, it suddenly inspired me but also, worried me.
I have always wanted to be the first at something, but I have also always wanted to show my patriotism in non-traditional ways.
As a Pakistani woman, who moved away from Pakistan some years ago, people have told me I am anything but patriotic, because the age-old belief is, if you love your country you must suffer with it, and within it.
I, however, choose to spend my days away from Pakistan. This is especially why I see myself as a sort of unofficial ambassador of Pakistan – representing my country, and its women in the best way possible, at work, at events, and during travel and the activities and goals I pursue.
Which is why when Sunday came, and the trek turned into a climb, hanging on to rocks and watching as some fell to the floor below me, panicking as the stones beneath my feet gave away, I knew as much as I wanted to, I could not give up.
For, if there’s one thing that’s true about Pakistanis, it is that we are relentless in pursuing what we believe in.
My guide stayed close to my side, as I maneuvered through the sand and silt and managed like a monkey on the rocks.
I gasped for air as it got less dense; I fumbled for a sturdy grip as the crevices became smaller, my backpack getting heavier, the summit seeming miles away.